Seventeen.. feels like sixteen.

Happy Birthday me =) seventeen.. i'm old as hell. gee` iono what was wrong with me this year though.. just didn't feel like doing anything iguess. but damn, was it nice out or whatt?! didn't feel like my birthday this year even though it was on a very gorgeous saturday. gee` but i did take a walk just to bask in the sun a little. it was nicee. two hours of nothing but thinking screwed me up in the head a little though. ithink a lot, more than i really should, if u ask me. it's a curse.
so i wonder if anyone has actually read any of this. ha. anywayss..
soo my dayy.. woke up. went back to sleep. sister jumped on top of me, kissed me on the cheek, and greeted me a happy birthday. ha i love her. went down stairs and got more birthday greetings except from my dad cuz he forgot til around two or something. ha i'm loved. Jonathan paid me a visit for a couple hours =) went for a walk by myself for another couple hours. and went out to dinner with the fam.. i got this steak that practically melted in my mouth. mmmm =) it was ohh soo tender. ha. what a fat kid.
UGH, i texted him today. why? I DON'T KNOW. he didn't even know what today is. iono why i expected him to asdfghjkl; i asked him to hang out. it was all cool but he couldn't. but why did i ask? all i did was disappoint myself. even after that talk with jonathan about how he's different now... ugh. i hate him so much, i don't think people even understand. so i really just put myself in a bad mood for no reason. foreal? FOREAL? i'm an idiot. as of today, i'm through with him. I AM DONE.
random but, i hate when guys treat me hella cutsie. yea, i'm small and i have a high pitched voice. but u know what? my voice is a lot deeper in my head! andd i really don't realize how small i am until i call a little kid cute and when they get closer, i come to realize that they're the same height as me -__- gee` stupid size of mine. asdfghjkl; guys hella treat me different than my sister. i wanna be on homie status. i hate being the girl that u can't say anything to without flirting with her. WHYY?! ugh. boo me.
*sigh* yupp. well, i'm off. Happy Birthday to me. adios.